I often feel like time doesn’t go fast enough.
There are things I look forward to, like summer weather, and it seems so far away.
But lately, I’ve been reflecting on my life and have started to feel that time is passing very quickly.
In the last few days, I’ve seen several people posting online about losing loved ones. And I’ve experienced scares in my own family of possibly losing someone.
It’s always a wake up call when these things happen. These are times that force us to evaluate our lives and see what’s important.
I started thinking about how many things I plan to get to, when the time is “perfect” and then never end up doing because that “perfect” moment moves up to yet a later time frame.
I guess what I’m most reflecting on, is my relationship with God and my role as a Muslim.
I feel that I’ve let so much time pass and keep saying I’ll memorize more Quran or read more books about Islam, when the kids get to bed, or when I have a weekend free. And it just never happens.
After thinking about all my shortcoming, I’ve decided that one of the main things I am going to try my best to focus on now, is to have a better routine and get back on track with my spiritual development.
I honestly feel I have become spiritually depleted these last few years, and just when I try to catch up, something grabs my attention and I get busy with life.
What I’m trying to start with is to simply do my best to get all my prayers in on time.
That’s one of my biggest weaknesses, letting time pass and trying to cram it in at the last minute.
For a long time my excuse was that the kids were always needing something, and for the most part that has been true. Then there is the excuse of getting caught up in a work assignment and being too shy to say, “I have to go pray, I’ll be right back.”
Now that they are older, I hope to be a better example of sticking to a proper routine and taking time out of “life” to reconnect with God and detach myself from the materialistic world we live in.
Have you struggled with your spirituality? What has been your solution?