I love the online world. And I’m all about embracing new forms of technology.
But, there is one platform that I just can’t seem to get comfortable with, and that’s the Instagram app.
If you don’t use it or haven’t really understood what the rage has been the last few years… well it’s a photo sharing app you use on your smart phone. All you can do is post pictures or a short 15 second video. There is no content whatsoever. People LOVE to use it for selfies, and posting pictures they can put special effects on.
You can follow people, and they can follow you.
When I first used it under my own name, there weren’t many people on there and I’d occasionally post pictures of food or places I went. Then I decided to create a Hijabtrendz account, and I wasn’t very good at updating it.
The icon that represents Instagran
I thought last year that I would really put some time in and use it as a way to get people engaged who may not know about the actual Hijabtrendz website.
The thing with instant updates on any social media app, is that you have to keep at it, or you risk losing your audience. And with the fleeting attention span we have these days, it’s hard to keep people engaged.
I stooped to the level of selfies y’all.
While I don’t mind doing them occasionally, it became quite apparent that all my pictures were becoming more and more about me. It was easier than trying to get a unique image… in a time crunch? Snap a photo of myself smiling in the car, or in the gym or at a restaurant lol.
It’s quite embarrassing when I look at them.. I cringe inside!
But, that’s not the worst part. What made me feel really bad about myself, was when I’d scroll through pictures and see hijabis decked out from head to toe, for a simple “errand”. I get that a lot of these are staged and it takes hours to look like that, but it also made me feel like I wasn’t good enough.
I started to hate having my picture taken. My husband can attest to this. I never think I look good enough to post anything lol.
And that’s when I had a little reality check with myself.
I thought back to how I felt BEFORE Instagram. I was happy and blissfully unaware of that hyper competitive world of imagery. AFTER I was so consumed with my looks and whether I looked fat on camera.
Things I never would have imagined I’d get sucked into! (I’ve written plenty of posts and published articles on the whole idea that hijab fashion can often create the very same mainstream fashion body image issues we claim hijab can help combat).
So what did I do? I deleted the app. And I felt relief. I don’t feel the urge to look at my phone when I’m bored and scroll through endless photos of perfection. I also did the same with FB, although I still log in from time to time. But there is just so much negativity and the constant link sharing… it’s overwhelming at times!
Of course moderation is key. And perhaps after I’ve taken a break, I can reassess how I want to use these social media options and not let them use me.